You know, tension can be a good thing.
Under the right conditions, the stretching action, otherwise
known as tension, can build body strength, create literary interest and be a
useful tool for engineering. On the other hand, tension in human relations
makes for some difficult times.
And, to say that we’ve been experiencing a bit of tension around here
might be a major understatement...
Ever since July, we have been anticipating the Boss’ next
post-cancer surgery MRI. The one that would tell if those things that “lit up”
on the last one were of serious concern. If you missed that whole saga, read
these. https://homesteadhillfarm.blogspot.com/2017/08/sunday-walkabout-8-6.html
In the meantime, we went through the motions. We got our farm and garden work done.
odd pink light at daybreak (no filter) |
sheep on fall clean-up |
what is this? some sort of alien life form? |
nope Girlfriend found a patch of burdock |
she's COVERED in it! |
the other sheep seem perplexed |
We even took our
annual “fieldtrip” over the mountain for a little leaf-peeping, local apples
and the Boss’ “birthday lunch”.
pretty ride over the mountain |
do you see why a disabled tractor trailer closed down the whole road? |
birthday lunch at Wild Wolf |
near Piney River |
pretty red maple leaves |
Rockfish Gap |
more Rockfish Gap |
But, all the while, the thought of that upcoming scan was
lurking in the corners of our minds. But, not in our conversations.
He tends to go all “John Wayne” and shut down when he feels
that his emotions might get the best of him. Me, I babble on and on, hoping
there’s an answer or insight in the multitude of words. But, John Wayne was
winning this one. We weren’t going to talk about anything that wasn’t positive.
And, we couldn’t attempt any future plans.
So, we were at an impasse until he finally admitted just how
nervous he was. Which didn’t happen until the day before the scan. He was
incredibly anxious and trying to prepare himself for the worst.
That left me in the odd position of being the positive one,
the voice of reason. Since we’d already faced getting scary news unexpectedly,
I figured we had already run the emotional gamut. Surely, things would be all
right. It was just a matter of faith, right?
But, then, there was the unsettling possibility that I was
being overly optimistic. (and I hesitated to voice that concern) The impasse
continued...the tension built.
Monday morning found us heading over the mountain in the
dark once more. The boss silently driving, and me babbling. (trips over the
mountain in the dark trigger memories of that awful night in ’10, and I talk
even more...but, at least it was a distraction from the scary thoughts)
The trip over the mountain was uneventful. But, there had
been a windstorm in the night that had knocked out power to the area. When we
arrived, the imaging clinic was struggling to get everything back on-line.
Numerous employees had been unable to make it to work, so the schedule was
backed up. That left little time for the Boss to get some breakfast before we
needed to be at the clinic for his appointment with the surgeon. (as you
probably know, you aren’t allowed to eat before medical tests...hence the early
morning appointment)
MRI scan completed, breakfast eaten, parking place secured,
we were astonished when the elevator doors opened to a crowded waiting room. Since
the clinic was running behind as well, we sat for quite a while. Tension
began to build again.
When the doctor finally breezed in, it was immediately clear
that the news was good. As a matter of fact, he was so confident in the good
news that he scheduled the next scan for SIX months instead of three.
It was as if the weight of the world lifted from the Boss’
shoulders. His relief was visibly evident.
he didn't realize I photographed the moment of relief |
That was a great birthday present!
(yes, the scan was indeed done on the Boss’ birthday---which
just added to the tension)
Life has been pretty anti-climactic after that.
We received some much-needed rain.
rainy Sunday on birch leaves |
bad weather moving through |
after the rain |
a closer look at the view above 3 white-tail deer out for a morning stroll |
rainy leaves in the backyard |
certainly looks like November |
another day of rain! |
We hauled the last load of lambs to the processor without
incident or difficulty.
you never know what you might see on the interstate this time...a one-legged skeleton on the back of a big rig! |
The Boss harvested the last of the fall potatoes and got
them stored in the reefer for winter sales. I realized that this is the first
time in over 20 years that I have not played an integral part in potato
harvest.
And, I do love potato harvest!
We’re down to just two more Market days for the season.
10-28 market |
11-4 Market SO glad for the upcoming the time change! (it is TOO dark) |
...so now we can be in count-down mode for my upcoming surgery. We had a second
consult with the doctor to answer questions and allay fears. He makes it sound
so easy. Now we’re just waiting for the hospital to call with the exact time.
This time next week I should feel like a different woman. (here’s hopin’!)
last of morning glories behind the barn |
If you missed it earlier in the week, I’m working on a
series focusing on gratitude. Check it out here. here. Look for another post this Thursday.
Thanks for reading along. And, a special thanks for all the love and prayers for the Boss!
Hope you’re having a Happy
Sunday!
lots of "gumballs" on the gum tree up on the lane |
Come back and “visit” us again real soon.
You can view the Boss’ Market shots here:
I realized I was holding my breath until I got to the part of your post where we found out the Boss was o.k. Now I can breath again. Hang in there until your surgery. You'll feel so much better once it's over and you're healed and you hear your good news. -Jenn
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading, Jenn!
DeleteBarbara - you're post allowed me to share every emotion with you as it happened. A privilege to be part of you and the boss's journeys into medical twilight zone. I'm so glad that the Boss is doing well and I am sending all positive energy your way for your surgery, and we'll all be right here with you during your recovery. Kris
ReplyDeleteThanks for reading, Kris!
DeleteI truly appreciate your encouragement on this journey.
Absolutely the best news. And wishing a speedy recovery for you!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Cheri!
DeleteWhat a great relief for you both with such good news after the MRI. Now you will be in my thoughts all week for your surgery and I hope a very easy recovery.
ReplyDeleteIt is lovely seeing your photos of autumn color. It has been pretty drab here. I think, due to a very dry August and September and then our great storm last week bringing down a lot of the leaves.
Here's wishing for everything on the upside for you now.
Thanks for the kind words, Cheryl!
DeleteThey mean the world to me.